Thursday, September 27, 2012

The countdown is ON!

Oh my goodness, I ‘m less than a week away….I’ve been planning and re-planning for months promising myself that if I was really going to do this, then October 1st had to be my kick-off date because it’s my birthday month and I’ve always felt as though it was lucky.  But that was months ago, and now it’s a mere 5 days away!!!  Okay, the good news is that physically, everything is ready.  I have created my own products, built a new website, and I have enough ideas to fill a building….a really big building.  But…am I really READY??? 
I’ve started a lot of new adventures in my life.  I’ve blown around in the wind and tried to make them work for as long as I could, but they never felt like they really fit because there was always something missing.  People who know me probably won’t be surprised by one more endeavor, after all, these are the same people who each time I start something new are the ones that feel as though they have to ask, “Is this finally going to make you happy?  Is this IT?”  Perhaps their perception of me is what used to makes me so nervous about sharing this with them.  Maybe an overwhelming fear of judgment is what got me here in the first place….in which case, that must be a good thing.  Or could it be that this slogan has resonated so deeply with me that for the first time in my life I’m not really all that concerned with what THEY think.  If that’s the case, then oh my gosh, I really DO need to share it!
Am I really crazy enough to launch what I am actually calling a campaign?  Uh…yes, yes as a matter of fact I think I am!  It’s been a long road getting to this place and a lot of the process hasn’t really been all that much fun.  But the point is, I’m here.  I’ve wanted to be at this place for as long as I can remember but I just couldn’t get the pieces to fall into place and so I wandered around….a lot!
But now everything suddenly feels different, and it has since the day the slogan Flawed is the New Fabulous leaped into my head.  It dug its heels in, unpacked all of its belongings, painted the walls a bright shade of red and just wouldn’t leave.  Oh I waited, I waited for the usual flags that told me this was another of my fleeting ideas, another turn down the same old road that has always lead to frustration and feeling as though my IT was still missing.  But the warning signs never came.  For months I wrote about it in my journal, planned everything down to the last detail and still waited to find a way to sabotage the whole plan.  Didn’t happen.  Somehow and for whatever reason, I just knew in my heart that I had to share it.
All these years of trying to figure out what I wanted to be when I grew up couldn’t possibly culminate with the launch of this campaign, can they?  Yet somehow I know with every fiber of my being that I am exactly where I’ve always hoped I would be, I am at a turning point in my life and there is no looking back.  From the drawings to the birth of the slogan, ALL the years of writing and soul searching, and driving my husband to the brink of insanity have ultimately lead to five little words with one enormous message and it feels FABULOUS to know that I will finally be sharing it!  Even that crazy voice, the voice that normally shows up ( I call her NOna, but more on her later) and tells me what a fool I am seems to have left the building and so, beyond a shadow of a doubt it seems as though I am ready!
I feel like a little girl getting ready for the first day of school….the anticipation enough to make me crazy….so excited I can barely sit still.  Yes, I am ready and if all goes as planned then Monday October 1st is going to be one heck of a fantastic day!